Do you know what I despise the most,
that when I sleep, I see you,
that when am awake, I think of you,
that when I crumble, I need you,
that when I needed you, you left.
Do you know what I desire the most,
that when I looked at you, I didn’t cringe,
that when I talked to you, I grew numb,
that when I saw you, I gave you a chance,
that when you had the chance, you didn’t look away.
But do you know what I feel now,
that I can walk without the chains,
that I can laugh without pretence,
that I can smile and it be real,
I feel free of the pain.