Just cause I love Garfield…

imagesAnd I might be a little bit in love with Jim Davis work…

Cici.

Hump Day…

Weird facts you don’t want to know but I’ll tell you anyway.

Liar, Liar, Pants on fire!!!

People are giant liars! Why this statement of Cici fact? Simple. I watch a ton of housing shows. From house hunters to beach front bargains, and all these people say the same thing. We want to entertain, which instantly means to me, they are people persons with tons and tons of friends. However, on the other extreme, they say, “Geez, those neighbors are too close!” Instant reaction? You people are the Grinch. And that old man/woman who is in every neighborhood yelling at kids on the street.

So really, y’all are liars. You are probably saying you want to entertain but you really mean the three dogs and ten cats you own.

At least am straightforward. I don’t like neighbors cause I like sleeping till 11 o’clock and I always get those neighbor who wake up at 6 am and turn on the radio and TV at the highest volume possible. I don’t like to entertain cause they never help with the clean up afterwards, plus, am lazy.

This is a public service message to inform you, that;

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You are welcome! 😛

Cici.

Hump Day…

Weird facts you don’t want to know but I’ll tell you anyway.

So Next step…

Its been a few months since I graduated and of course I have done nothing but stay home online looking at graduate programs and schools, and am freaking out. They are just so many programs, so many schools. Its overwhelming. To top it off I have added pressure from the ‘rents asking me what am doing with my life. Can’t I get a break? How have people been doing this for years?

How do you take that next step, when its like jumping into the deep end into all these sharks and you are Nemo!!! It’s getting kind of annoying to be asked what are you doing with your life? My head is about to blow! Parents, am going to give some advise, just to help you in parenting your kid when they become a new adult;

  1. Do not take your kids to school too early,. They will finish school early and be out of place in the work place.
  2. Give them space. I know you want your kids to be a success but some of them need to go at their own pace. If you hurry them, then you are on your way to a mental break down.
  3. Talk to your kids. Don’t tell them you are going to do this, ask them if they want to do it in the first place. Cause otherwise they are going to do it halfheartedly and that’s no way to do anything.

So really, taking the next step is harder than most graduates realize.

Help!!

Cici.

(Image by scott chambers)

Purple Monday…

Painting Monday blues, purple. Couldn’t be red, Its Monday!

Cry for help…

As a people, we like to bury our heads so far in the ground, trying to pretend that the problems we have, are something else. The answer might be staring at you right in your face but we just assume it will fix itself and ignore it. No matter how much a cry for help we might offer, our pleas are laughed away like it is nothing but just a joke or something that came with the boat.

I might not be as old or as experienced as the people around me, or even my peers but I understand that, even if you sweep the problem under the rug, it will just keep growing and explode in your face. Most are afraid to speak out, to show emotion, to show that they have a problem.

It shouldn’t be hard to say am not better. That I need help. To speak out and just say I need someone. The burden carried is too heavy for just me. But we are society that likes to hide. To close our eyes and just say, its not there. But, we all need a light bulb moment. We need to understand that the excuse,its a white mans disease, is not sufficient.

Am haunted by the ghost of a past I wasted. By a present where I crave company, but seek solitude to hide away my difference. By a future that is too far away, out of reach and blanketed by a mist. I cannot see past today and even today is fuzzy. I want out. Of this life of my ghosts, of the depression, of the self hate, of the emptiness.

Am scared shitless of what might happen if I were to lose the fight. They say its good to know yourself and your reactions but you know what, eff you! I know what my reactions will be and they will not be the pretty psycho babble you preach. It will be devastation, it will be pain, it will be blood.

I need an out. We all need an out. Before the voices, begin to sound right.

Cici.

Hump Day…

Weird facts you don’t want to know but I’ll tell you anyway.

How you know you need therapy…

After years of friends and family telling me I need therapy, I might finally agree. Reasons why? My dreams are getting crazier and crazier.

If you start having dreams of going back to high school WILLINGLY and taking Physics again WILLINGLY!! You need therapy!

If you are having dreams about two of you exes in the same house and you in the middle of that drama, You need therapy!!

If you are having dreams where you are a Phoenix Queen, and there’s a big Bear after you, You need therapy!

So dear therapist, please bill the insurance company, they been stealing from me long enough…

Cici.

Hump Day…

Weird facts you don’t want to know but I’ll tell you anyway.

The lost generation…

My generation used to be called the lost ones but I think the next one is more lost. Saturday morning TV is usually about kids and last Saturday was no difference. During an interview session with a primary school, a young boy was asked who their favourite singer was and why. His response, “ Vybz Kartel. Because I like his character and his my role model.”

WTF!! For those who don’t know who Vybz is, he is a riddims singer, and if you don’t no what riddims are they are a more naked version of reggae.

So anyway Vybz, this is him.

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This is your kids role model. No offense meant to Mr. Kartel but really??? drug charges, illegal firearms found in his house and last year, he was sentenced to life in prison for murder, and this is your kids role model? Ok, so he is trying to appeal this ruling but where there’s smoke… Parents, child lock on TV is your friend!

Cici.

Purple Monday…

Painting Monday blues, purple. Couldn’t be red, Its Monday!

Khal Drogo was killed to early…

As an obsessive movie watcher, who is also a heterosexual female with eyes, I moan the fact that Khal Drogo was killed way to early in Game of Thrones. I was re-watching the series and I might have shed a tear or two for the loss of man candy on our beloved screens!! This little snippet into this belated moaning period was brought on by a picture of him I saw on goodreads! So thank you mysterious commentator for ruining my pancake filled evening…

Cici.

Purple Monday…

Painting Monday blues, purple. Couldn’t be red, Its Monday!

(image: fineartamerica.com)